The Day She Left for University, He Walked Into Her Bedroom and Did Not Come Out for an Hour.

Daniel helped Priya pack the car on a Sunday morning in late September. Four trips between her bedroom and the driveway. Boxes of books, a lamp she had carried around since sixth form, a duvet still in its plastic wrapping from the shop. His wife, Carol, organised everything. Daniel carried things and put them where he was told, which was usually what he was best at.

They drove to Sheffield in convoy — Priya in her own car, Daniel and Carol following behind. Two and a half hours. He kept his eyes on her brake lights the whole way and thought about almost nothing, which was unusual for him. He was the kind of person who was always thinking about something. That Sunday, his mind was strangely empty.

They helped her move in. Her room was on the third floor of a halls block that smelled of fresh paint and industrial carpet cleaner. They made her bed, assembled a small bookshelf, argued mildly about where to put the desk lamp. Priya’s flatmates kept arriving throughout the afternoon — each time one did there was a wave of introductions and noise and Daniel would step back slightly and let Carol handle it, because Carol was better at that kind of thing. She always had been.

He tried to be useful. He put together a flat-pack drawer unit that took forty minutes and two attempts. He went out and found a shop and bought milk and washing-up liquid and a roll of bin bags because Priya had forgotten them, and when he came back she was laughing at something with a girl from down the corridor and she looked, in that moment, entirely fine without him.

At around four o’clock she said she thought they should probably go. Daniel hugged her in the corridor outside her room. She smelled like the perfume she had worn since she was sixteen and it caught him off guard. She said “thanks, Dad.” He said “of course.” That was the whole of it.

On the drive back he stopped at a service station outside Chesterfield and sat in the car park for twenty minutes without going inside. Carol texted asking where he was. He said he had stopped for petrol. He had not stopped for petrol. He did not know why he had stopped. He sat there with the engine off until he felt ready to continue, which took longer than he expected.

When he got home the house was quiet in a way it had not been for eighteen years. He went upstairs.

Her bedroom was stripped down to almost nothing. Bare desk, bare shelves, the small dents in the carpet where her furniture had been. He sat on the edge of her bed and looked at the room for a while.

Behind the desk, pushed against the skirting board, was a piece of folded paper. He picked it up. A crayon drawing, done carefully, the kind a child makes when they are about seven and very serious about getting the faces right. A family portrait, each figure labelled in unsteady letters: Mum. Priya. Daniel (Dad). The sun in the corner. The figure labelled Daniel was holding something that looked like a briefcase.

He sat on the floor with his back against her bed and held it for a long time.

He is fifty-eight now. Priya is in her second year. She comes home at Christmas and for a few days in summer, and he listens to her more carefully than he used to listen to most things.

The drawing is on his desk at work. His colleagues have never asked about it.

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